Life has been a a puzzle for me so far. Tried hard to understand and reciprocate but failed most of the times. Guess i dot have the smarts to know one of the most complex thing - LIFE. My fingers constantly trying to access my social network site--am I idle? If not then why this constant urge to knw what's going on? Am I bored? if not then why this delibrate effort to play games and feel delighted at completing some stupid tasks they assign. well, I would say I feel lonely at times and when it is at its peak is when I find refuge in Blogging.
Today I met a child.. he was crying so profusely and nothing on earth could stop him from crying. It was sad to see a beautiful face so sunken in tears and I couldn't stop myself from finding out what made him so sad. Somewhere I felt he too wanted to speak him mind out and was looking for someone who could listen to his sweet little nothings or even his anger. I decided to go ahead and headed straight to him. As we got talking I learnt his name, that he belonged to my country and he was new there etc etc.. so far all this was told to me without giving a break to crying. So one can imagine how difficult it was for me to hear him amidst his loud cries. Well as we talked further, he told me he wished to be back with his family now while almost trying to hug me. I thought to myself may be a cuddle could have relieved him of his worries. May be he would have had a feeling that someone is there to sit down and just be with him. While my mind was still figuring out if I could actually cuddle the little one ( i wasn't authorised to do so in that particular environment), I still held his hand. We were still talking and I felt he was going to tell me all is well and that he is happy and BOOM comes the shocker my way...He told me in the loudest voice possible "mai yahan rahunga toh mar jaunga !!"..that if I stayed here I would die. For a minute i couldn't get over this shock.. the shock that a small child could make such a big statement..to understand that child could have been stressed and nearly choked to have actually mouthed out those words for me. Or was I going through similar feelings and hence shocked to hear it being told to me. Anyways for the child I found a way out and he would have been out of the choking for today but me.. wht about me.. where am I heading for? and who would get me off this choking...for now life isnt having good things to think about..just surrounded by negetive thoughts which have succeded in turning me to ashes.. I shall soon arise like a phoenix like always. Hope is my key and as always I'm hoping
Today I met a child.. he was crying so profusely and nothing on earth could stop him from crying. It was sad to see a beautiful face so sunken in tears and I couldn't stop myself from finding out what made him so sad. Somewhere I felt he too wanted to speak him mind out and was looking for someone who could listen to his sweet little nothings or even his anger. I decided to go ahead and headed straight to him. As we got talking I learnt his name, that he belonged to my country and he was new there etc etc.. so far all this was told to me without giving a break to crying. So one can imagine how difficult it was for me to hear him amidst his loud cries. Well as we talked further, he told me he wished to be back with his family now while almost trying to hug me. I thought to myself may be a cuddle could have relieved him of his worries. May be he would have had a feeling that someone is there to sit down and just be with him. While my mind was still figuring out if I could actually cuddle the little one ( i wasn't authorised to do so in that particular environment), I still held his hand. We were still talking and I felt he was going to tell me all is well and that he is happy and BOOM comes the shocker my way...He told me in the loudest voice possible "mai yahan rahunga toh mar jaunga !!"..that if I stayed here I would die. For a minute i couldn't get over this shock.. the shock that a small child could make such a big statement..to understand that child could have been stressed and nearly choked to have actually mouthed out those words for me. Or was I going through similar feelings and hence shocked to hear it being told to me. Anyways for the child I found a way out and he would have been out of the choking for today but me.. wht about me.. where am I heading for? and who would get me off this choking...for now life isnt having good things to think about..just surrounded by negetive thoughts which have succeded in turning me to ashes.. I shall soon arise like a phoenix like always. Hope is my key and as always I'm hoping
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